Somewhere only we know.

Matt Giraud is out.
That sucks. I thought he sang My Funny Valentine really, really well. All of them don't deserve to go! BUT HAHAHAHA ADAM WAS IN THE BOTTOM TWO.
I was so shocked but secretly, was incredibly happy.
Couldn't stop smirking.
Fine he's an awesome singer and we all know he's gonna win.
GET OVER THE HYPE PEOPLE.
I don't like Adam. And it has nothing to do with the fact that he's gay.
No discrimination.

Final-most likely gokey and lambert.

7-11 chicken club sandwiches are freaking yummy.
Tao-paoed it for lunch with mango juice, bus ride home with manda.
Cheena was alright, (if you compared it to last year's MYE), but tough as an individual paper.
Only had one lesson today, Amath.
Stupid stupid linear law and all the graphs.
Assembly was a spanish dance (MEXICO :O SWINE FLU!) and I almost slept.
But the guitarist was good.

I have one week to cram 30 chapters in my head.
Good luck to me.

I love Rachel Soh Wen Yun.
Bus ride after math supp, decided not to go with the rest to Ice Cream Chefs.
I still owe ange a trip there.
After going the whole way and alighting at the bus stop near Temasek sec,
decided to go all the way back since we were both suckers for the free mix-ins.
Economy. Bad. Might as well save money.
Heh.

Sat with fuzz, vic, fai and the twins.
Later went to the market near my house for rachel to buy her creamy cakes.
Chatted like crazy.
Very fun day.

I MISS CRYSTLE WEE SHI YI THE BIGGEST LOSER EVER.
Seventeen Again with her on thursday night, screw the mid years for those four hours.
Realised I had cheena tuition on labour day night.
So the friday date was cancelled.
:(
can't wait to see her.

Sparkle of a million flashlights.

Was super tired in the morning, due to late-night unhealthy cramming caused by too much tv watching.

Watched S Factor again, no matter how stupid it is, it never fails to be entertaining.
Some of the girls are such ugly bitches (ugly on the inside, and the outside) and have absolutely no substance whatsoever in their puny brains.
Bahrain Grand Prix, FERRARI GOT FIRST POINTS OF THE SEASON!
Yes man. Even though it's only three, at least it counts for something, right? Hah. Better than Force India. Some fair comparison.
When it comes to Singapore, I'm gonna do whatever it takes to see all the racers face to face. Even if it means camping out at the airport or going there at ungodly hours. Or waiting at Suntec City in the wee hours of the morning.
I sound like a crazy stalker.
Damn it, I love Singapore for getting the green light.

Social Studies today was tough.
Chinese was manageable. Yay to cheena.
Was supposed to be kicked out of amath supp. today for not doing the mock paper.
I suddenly remembered it wasn't given to me, so Mrs Ang allowed me to stay.
Only when she started teaching the first sum that I suddenly remembered I had it but it was a home.
So technically I should have been kicked out.
Wanted to leave but she looked pissed enough.
Nearly slept through the lesson.

I crave for subway.

We were just two kids who took the moment when it was there.

The recent events that have been taking a toll l on me are starting to wear off.
Slowly. Really slowly.
For nearly the first time ever, came back early on a friday afternoon,
Extremely productive as I slept for nearly four hours straight, waking up in time to leave for tuition.

AND.
Bus 31 just refused to appear.
Waited for half an hour just staring at the evening sky.
And perspiring at the bus stop.
After cheena, rushed to Mini Toons to get the rest of Nooranah's present.
Thankfully it was still open!
Slacked at Borders till 10.30,
read glamour and teenvogue, which both had miley cyrus on the cover.
Looked for the gossip girl dvd but they didn't have it!
Argh so pissed. When is it EVER coming out?

I love the fact that Borders is the last shop to close.
I love Parkway at night, when there's hardly anyone.

Took a taxi home, mom was afraid I would get kidnapped, and didn't allow me to take the bus.
Reached at eleven.
Gosh.
My life is so mundane.

to the girl who makes rain go away, and sunshine appear.

Jasmine.
I can't believe you're really leaving Ixora.
It should have been me, and now I really wish it was.
It's going to be so different without you.
A void that can never be filled, a soul lingering in place.
You've seen me in my worst and best moments,
you've always been there for everyone.
We're all gonna miss you so much.
I don't know how I'm gonna manage without you, being alone.

If I continue thinking about it, I'm gonna start crying again.
But honestly, Swallow is so unbelievably lucky to have you as a PL.
They should be counting their lucky stars that you're such an awesome person.

We won't ever, ever forget you.
You'll always be a part of Ixora.
Remember that.

Best patrol mates.
Baby, we're invincible.

Love you a billion willion tillion zillion times.

The Five People You Meet in Heaven.

I spent the entire day reading the book.
Neglected all the mugging.
I know I'm rather slow, but it is indeed a beautiful book.

Careless whispers.

I want to watch 17 Again.
I have to watch 17 Again.

And Revolutionary Road, and 1990s movies like The Virgin Suicides and American Beauty.
Oh and Ghost World too.
Not horror movies.

I need a life.

Remembering Sunday;

It is so flipping hot nowadays.
What is happening to the earth?
Cut my hair and bangs, my hair's kinda short now but I don't think anyone will notice any difference.
Just got sick of my long hair.
Spent a bomb yesterday at parkway, having to buy four presents.
I'm thinking of selling my twilight book, which I don't even read.

Sebastian vettel won the China Grand prix, awesome.
I'm getting pretty sick of Jenson Button anyway.
Ferrari's horrible losing streak is continuing.
This totally whomps.
This week is going to be really hectic.
It's time to really get started on revision.

Mid years suck.

Reveal.

Nothing's going right.
Life's unpredictable, you can never expect how things might turn out.
Maybe it's everyone.
The people around you, they can just lie straight to your face, put on a facade and you'll never, ever know how they really think, how they really feel.
Everyone wears a mask, everyone has a secret, anyone can turn against you, any day, anytime.
They smile, they laugh, but behind your back, you'll never find out what's happening.

Why does trust feel like such a feeble, unimportant virtue that's constantly brushed aside?
It's so difficult to contain the belief that not everyone is like that,
that there are true friends out there who'll speak the truth.
The fake atmosphere is just stifling.
You don't know where to go, you can't escape.
People are capable of anything.

It's so disheartening, it's a fact I don't want to accept.
I'm beginning to collaspe into a state of disillusionment.
Nobody is like they seem.

Not anymore.
I hate this.
It's what's happening around me.
Maybe it's this phase. But my faith has taken a slip.

Some things just work the way they do.
Honestly, nothing seems to be real anymore.
good riddance to you. I'm so glad you're gone. After what you've put me through.
Today was sec four farewell.
Not much to say.
Because I don't know how to feel anymore,
I don't know what to believe in anymore.

So turn the music up, you're hearing more than sound.

I am so tired. I have absolutely no time to even revise for tomorrow's lit test.
Mid years are coming, and yeah.
Started on nothing.
Gave roses to the drama girls in the morning.
It's so exciting to see what happens before a big show.
The make-up was so cool.

Decorated wine glasses for sec fours after maths supplementary with jas.
Went to Far east plaza later to get all the gifts,
subway for dinner. I haven't eaten it in such a long time.
Walked around till our legs almost broke, from far east to wheelock place to wisma to taka.
Bought my pair of heart shaped sunnies, impulsive hahaha.
Now I'm really broke.
Orchard Road is as ever crowded at night.
But I am so glad we managed to buy everything!
Homed at nine.

I love you jas for being my awesome ixora mate.
Tons of fun catching up, chatting as we shopped.
I'm so scared for tomorrow.
I really am.
Whatever happens, we'll always be the best of patrol mates.
Yeah?(:

AND THE BEST PART-
I GOT MY NEW PHONE!
Sony ericsson, baby.
Text me, call me people.
I want to use it every minute.

Toblerone ice-cream is the sweetest thing. Literally.

Failed chem.
Sucks.

Feel fat.
Sucks.

Bangs look like shit.
Sucks.

Social life.
Died.

I need to get a grip on myself.
And start taking control of my otherwise pathetic life.

Watched the S factor last night.
Yes, I was one of those people whom after reading the Sunday Times decided to increase the show's viewership. I like watching bimbo reality television shows.
And yeah, it was that bad.
It was like some cheap knock-off of Singapore's Next Top Model (if, they ever have one).
I felt so embarrassed for the models (?!??!) there.
The show is really degrading.
But, the irony and hypocrisy-
I think I'll still continue watching it.
It's so stupid that it's actually interesting.

Harper's Island was flipppppppppppping scary.
Screamed like a lunatic at nearly every part.
I can't take the slightest bit of horror/gore.
It's very suspenseful and thrilling. Extremely creepy.
Sunday nights have just been filled up.

Went to Tampines One after amath supp. with Aqliah and Atikah.
Hell crowded, and there was a super long queue to enter Uniglo ( how do you even spell it?)
Like what the heck? There was a queue to enter the darn shop.
THE TOPSHOP THERE IS AWESOME.
I nearly died and went to heaven when I stepped in.
It is huge, and there are tons of clothes.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Picking up the pieces.

Melancholic contemplation.
Everyone gets lonely, once in a while.
Is it something that's so difficult to admit?
A form of social stigma?

When you're in denial, trying to figure out the reasons, not wanting to believe,
to accept the truth.
Maybe you are indeed lonely.

Maybe, just maybe.

Flicker.

I have a sudden uncontrollable compulsion to walk around the streets in my jammies at midnight.
I love going out at night so much.
It's like you see a different side of Singapore in the day.
But at night, everything seems so much more, alive.
I still have so many plans that have not been carried out.
I really, really want to ride on the singapore flyer.
Everyone says it's overrated but I don't care.

And the whole saga where people were stuck up there and stuff.
I need someone to go with me.
Anyone?

Parkway in the morning.
I declare that every flavour in berrylite is awesome.
Strawberry is as delish as cookies and cream.
The sucky thing was that I forgot to get my card stamped again.
Grrrrrr.
Bought a pair of checkered shorts and a top from FOX.
Happy.

I just found out how swaku I am.
Is that how you even spell it?
Tried Roti John for the first time in my life.
It's so unbelievably delicious that I can't believe I've never tried it before.

I am a deprived local foodie.

'cause I don't wanna miss, set you a drift on memory bliss.

English was incredibly hilarious.
Debated,
"earth hour did not do much to solve the problem of global warming."

We were the awesome oppostion.

I realised I totally suck in debates.
Like I can debate naturally around my groupmates,
but in front of a huge crowd, my mind goes blank and I don't know what to say.
I'm so bad at impromptu hahaha.

Me and rachel both couldn't stop laughing and laughing, cos our notes were crap and we were both spouting crap.
So I started babbling about formula one, engines and diffusers and all the aerodynamics and how they wanted to conserve energy
in the hope everybody would think it was cheem or something.

In the end,
nad, me and rach began to sing and dance to win votes.
Raised our hands over our heads in the shape of light bulbs.

rach: this little light of mine, I'm gonna off it now...
me: ting ting ting..
rach: this little light of mine, I'm gonna off it now...
me: ting ting ting...

It was so bloody funny.
But died lah we still lost.
HAHAHAAHAHAHA.

Whatever.
Earth hour still rocks(:

Sports day.

Woke up at 6.45 am today.
Macs with rachel was cancelled, so I slacked around the house until 7.15,
then left.
After seeing all the other t-shirts,
I like our class t-shirt a lot(:

It was freaking hot today.
Initially cooling, then scorching hot.
Didn't take a lot of pics.
Screamed and cheered like crazy for the 3e2 runners.
Melissa, nat, dy, andria and elle are so damn fast.
So proud of them.
Melissa was the overall champion for sec 3!:D

We won first prize for banner!
Awesome.
Two times already(:
It was much consolation.
The hokkaido green tea ice cream provided some source of comfort too.
The teacher's relay was freaking cool and hilarious.
Who knew Mr tang, mdm lim or mr seah could run so fast?
And I burst out laughing when I saw Mr fee running wearing his sunglasses and tight shirt.
but overall.

Sports Day was kinda boring this year.
Where was the class spirit?

Confessions of a shopaholic with Amanda later.
I really, really like the show.
The kiss was so darn romantic.
Isla fisher was the ultimate bimbo.

Dear gravity, you held me down in this starless city.

Disappointment.
It seeps through your heart, overwhelmingly, tangibly, palpably.
Surging wildly amongst the undercurrent of emotions,
Like a monster, threatening to swallow everything up,
Like a searing, excrutiating pain that's eating you alive.

A heavy stone plummeting down a bottomless pit.
It never hits the ground, there's no end.
A fall you can never pick yourself up from,
an old wound that will never heal.

A cataclysmic revelation.

You won't ever realise how much something means to you
until it flies right out of your hands,

beyond your grasp.

For the record.

Speech day.
I overslept and ended up missing breakfast at macs' with the gang.
Chionged like mad to school,
found out athena also overslept.
All of us got free ice cold nestle milo before we started marching.
I'll honestly never, ever get sick of milo for as long as I live.

GOH ended really fast,
the VIP looked like she couldn't be bothered whether we even stood there to greet her.
Bridged at Parkway macs,
then aspen.
I DIDN'T READ THE NEWSPAPER AND DIDN'T KNOW THEY WERE HAVING CRAZY SALES IN PARKWAY!
If I had known, I would have spent more time there,
instead of rushing home to see federer get trashed on tv.
Bought a top, paperchase poker cards (they were so cute that I coudn't resist),
stuff from mini bits.
I'm beginning to miss shopping.

My parents are out of town and are in malaysia for the weekend.
Rejoice.
My brothers and I plan to burn the house down.
Gonna watch the malaysian grand prix now.
Lewis hamilton is a liar.
Muahahahahahaha.

You're so hot you can turn gays straight and straight girls lesbo.

As quoted by Aqilah.
The unbelievably sick, hyper, crazy chipmunk who sits behind me.

You can't help but love her(:

Played captain's ball during PE.
So fun!
Modified softball was way more fun this week than last week.
We should totally learn tennis during pe,
though getting racquets would be a problem.

Mdm Jenny Lim should be a comedien,
because she is so darn comical and high sometimes that it cracks me up big time.
She made super animated actions about fishes flipping over and dying.
Laughed my head off.
For some inexplicable reason,
geog teachers have a really good sense of humour.
Mrs tan-wong was sarcastic-obviously duh funny.

Ate dinner at Eatz Culture with the bridge gang after guides.
EVERYONE SHOULD GO THERE!
The food's really cheap, good and the portions are big.
The service's really efficient too and the staff are really nice.
But it's empty half the time. Business doesn't look good.
I feel so sorry for them.
The food there is really worth it.
And it has such a cosy atmosphere.
I love the see-through neon chairs.

Just like magic wok express.
Restaurants/cafes like these really can't just depend on the students to patronise them.

GOH tomorrow at 8am.
Freaking tired already,
I'm so NOT looking forward to sacrificing my beauty sleep to go march for some VIP.
Staying until 1am to watch semis of sony errisson open.
Yawn.




I can't describe this feeling.
All I know is,
I really, truly enjoy your company.

And we can get away with this tonight.

I realised that there are so many hypocrites and bitches in this world.
Is that what a girl's school is really like?
I didn't know; I wasn't aware it was that bad.
I am in no position to judge;
I just feel so stupid now.

My life's very wonky too, rebecca.
So two's a crowd.

BUT-

happy birthday, best friend.

7 years and counting.
No matter what, you have to be happy on your birthday alright?
You don't get to turn fifteen everyday.
You know I love you loads.

Goodbye march, hello april.

Happy april fools'!
Didn't faint in front of every teacher like I did last year:(
We wanted to switch classes with 3e1 but forgot. Heh:P
Sang happy birthday to mrs ang, ms izrina and mr zaine!
Mrs ang was a total mood dampener.
Ms izrina and mr zaine were so funny.

"huh? what? but it's not my birthday!!"

Played tons of pranks on people this year.
Poor atikah.
Bubbles, alethea, karen, esther, faustina, den and counting.

me: "OMG DID YOU KNOW ICE CREAM CHEFS CLOSED DOWN?"
angelyn: "OMG OMG... (something something) BIG FAT LOSERS!"

Laughed like shit okay.
Sorry ange, your reaction was priceless.
HAHAHAHAHA.
Rachel was the best.

"Im unstraight."
"PAIGE TELL ME WHO IT IS! WHO WHO WHO! EH PLEASE LAH TELL MEEEE.."

Only mom managed to prank me,
by saying she had signed me up for emath and amath tuition.
I screamed in sheer horror.
Called my brother saying hwa chong just called our parents saying he had been suspended.
And told my dad that Adam Lambert had been kicked out of american idol due to some scandal.

I like april fools'.

Band girls got GOLD WITH HONOURS!
Yay to nadirah, jolene, yuan and elizabeth!
So proud of them.
They truly deserve it.