Recurring thoughts.

Chinese O'level oral was horribly nerve-wracking.
And the question was so stupid, stupid beyond comprehension, because it came out in 2006 and I failed to remember anything I had revised with my mother on that topic.

Translation of topic in English:

blahblah someone said teachers and students can be friends. Give your opinion.
I was stunned.
"EFF EFFING BLOODY OHMYCRAP SHIT ARE YOU EFFING KIDDING" raced through my mind.
Stammered.
Stumbled, fumbled for words.
Paused mid-way.
Hastily stringed up sentences of broken chinese.
Uncompleted sentences, which were left hanging in the air.
Contradicted myself multiple times.

Dammit.
But I guess I'm pretty relieved it's over, though I'm wrecked with much regret and frustration, because I could have done better. It's always that case. I'm not going to exaggerate and say I'm going to flunk, because I still managed to stutter some chinese.

Don't think it turned out as bad as I thought it would, though it was still kinda screwed-up.
Worked so effing hard for the oral and out comes this question which I didn't revise in depth. Guess it all boils down to luck, huh.

Now english oral tomorrow, and my confidence has taken a nasty fall.

I'm starting to really, really hate oral.