Halloween on the 30th.

Two days late, but-
Halloween party at Brenda's turned out to be the shizz.

No prizes for guessing what I wore, yes I even scared the living daylights out of myself and despite the fact that I'm a total horror movie coward I actually managed to look decently scary. Scrapped the angel idea since I didn't have wings, a big thank you to my seamstresses tat and ting for helping me create my bloody bedsheet dress, as I was in desperate need of a costume at the last minute. Slabbed on eyeliner and ta-dah. Paige Lim managed to pull it off. Oh and instead of a bloody knife I had a bloody fork. IT WAS FUN LOOKING LIKE A PONTIANAK/SAMARA(?) FROM THE RING. Dedicated to you, rasee ;)

So there was the hot nurse (ting), slutty devil (tat), tinkerbell (vic, who shred her old green pinafore), the holy nun (rach), and the cute witch (nat). Everyone's costumes were seriously awesome. Including mel, who was a cowboy without the hat.

Rained cats and dogs, rain stopped halfway, camwhored by the pool, barbequed and roasted mashmallows, chatted with ms ng and ms yang, and yeah in the end it was really enjoyable. My dress sadly disintegrated into a mangled heap of ripped cloth by the time I went home. And the blood looked like diluted ketchup (it was poster paint)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SLUTTY TAT AND DEN!(:

Left me, in yesterday.

I feel like a stupid cheena nerd.
Been studying for stupid o'level chinese (which is in two weeks time oh no) the entire day when instead I could have been out enjoying this perfectly beautiful tuesday. This is probably the first ever school holiday (excluding the march, june, nov and dec ones) I've spent at home.
The only consolation perhaps is that I had a good 10 and a half hours of sleep last night, coupled with another 1 hour at 3 today when I got sick of memorising crap words and fell soundly asleep on my bed. I love sleeping.
Oh and instead of going out, since technically tomorrow is the start of the holidays, we'll be going to school for extended studies. Like whaaaaaaaat. This is so, so sad.

I am also getting really sick of ris low. I swear if I ever hear a BOOMZ out of nowhere again I am going to yell at that person's face. It is all getting incredibly annoying. Don't get me wrong, but it was pretty funny last time. But now that she's become old news, why do we still continue to linger in this whole fad? Why are we still indulging in her mediocre sub-standard english? I can't believe I even used BOOMZ in one of my fb statuses once (back in the heyday when ris low was in the limelight). Urgh. Everyone's using BOOMZ in everything! Even in sentences that don't make any complete sense. Everyone's squeezing BOOMZ in everything, using the word in such contrived situations. I think a week ago Yiting told me her brother's friend (was it?) that used the word BOOMZ in a seriously nonsensical way and I burst out laughing there and then. On msn, he typed, HI BOOMZ.
?!???

Further more, I cannot comprehend why people love using FML. No offense to anyone. I mean, it's none of my darn business to dictate who is to use what phrase/word but it just set me thinking. (I love to think) Everyone's using it so often, do they really think their life is that bad? Or does using it just give them more excuse to wallow in self-contained pity, that their life undoubtedly sucks? Maybe it's just this teen adolescent thing I don't get, but honestly how about other people out there in the world suffering? They deserve to say all the fmls they want. I feel indignant, maybe I'm just being a prude. Oh well.

By the way, big super thank you to amanda, because thanks to her I got a job for two days packaging beauty products into goodie bags. The highlight- I'm gonna get paid 6 bucks an hour. Now I can get extra funding for various people's birthday presents.

YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES I'M GONNA GET MONEY.

Pardon the money-minded outburst.

me: Would you like to bring some happiness to my life, and get some girl guide cookies?

tessa: ................. no.

of kerosene and electric sparks

Lunch at Naive today, some organic vegetarian restaurant at Katong, with rach, nat, yiting and yinhui. Seriously unique experience. Everything was mock meat - half the dishes were mushroom dishes but they so did not taste like mushrooms. So we had mushroom rendang (TASTED LIKE BEEF OMG) and some battered oyster mushroom thing. I'm going back there!

Heard this song playing there, but I don't know the song title because I didn't manage to catch the lyrics! I really hate it when I like a song but have no means of finding out what it is so I can download it. All I know is that it sounds kinda indie. I NEED TO FIND OUT THE SONG.
WHAT IS THE SONG?! WHAT IS IT WHAT IS IT?!? I can't even remember the tune now.

recap.

Last tuesday:
Superb board game marathon with vic, tessa, nat, mel (who was there only for a short while)
I know this is a really belated post, but I just got reminded of it suddenly. Taboo, pictionary, jenga truth or dare (which was bloody hilarious).

"It must be the cat" - inside joke.

(:

Yesterday:
Swam at the swimming complex right smack in the beginning of midday. I think I was either a total brainless inane idiot or was just plain stupid back then. It was hot like dskfjdslkfjkdsjfkdsjfksdf and I had to slather so much sunblock on my skin that I looked ridiculous. And it was precisely because it was noon, so there was literally almost nobody swimming. Burned to death. I was worried I wouldn't be able to see a thing underwater whatwith my crap eyesight but it wasn't too bad. I could still remember how to froggy kick! Yay.

Chilled out at Starbucks with beth in the afternoon, it was fun catching up, all the random banter and post-results evaluation. WHICH REMINDS ME OF THE OH-SO-DREADED IMPENDING O'S. Grey menacing cumulonimbus clouds hovering over my head right now, that threaten to destroy the last few honeymoon moments of this year. Extended studies on wednesday!
Then walked around Parkway and found out the 500 days of summer soundtrack is yet again sold out, WHEN WILL IT EVER BE AVAILABLE. I'm sure my interest/enthusiasm will begin to wane after waiting for so long for it. Later stopped right outside lensmen because I saw a green pinafored girl inside trying on specs, and I kept on wondering who she was, and beth said she looked familiar (we managed to uncover her identity and it turned out to be WARISARA), and we stood outside the shop for around five minutes because I kept on deliberating whether I should go in and say hi since I knew her. And for some reason I find this so strange yet amusing because in the end, she walked right past us and into the distance. I didn't get to say hi.

:(

i think i'm really weird.

I wrote elegiac stanzas for you,

OMG I PASSED CHINESE. I GOT A B3. THIS IS INCREDIBLE.
AMAZING. MIRACULOUS.

On another note, anyone want to buy guide cookies? If you do please tell me, I'll get you a tin. Three flavours- chocolate mint, chocolate cream and chocolate crunch (new flavour), and it's 1 tin for ten bucks. I NEED TO SELL MORE. All my regular customers last year have abandoned me as their supplier hahahaha.

So, even with the exams over, life is kinda mundane and I feel so lethargic. I also feel like I've let some really great people down, in one way or another through my various actions and words which were seemingly innocuous at first but in retrospect, I realise they actually had a tremendous impact on those people. Looking back, I feel absolutely horrible, I don't know what got into me. I've been so self-absorbed and caught up in my own world that I haven't taken time to observe everything around me and reflect. Maybe it's a case of taking other people for granted, and I feel so ashamed, and I don't ever want to do that ever again. We don't always get second chances, do we?

I don't think those people I've let down even feel know that i've let them down (does this make any sense?) but I have, and I'm really sorry.

On yet another note,
Please make up your mind. Maybe I'm overeading this. But - It really hurts being dumped aside, now that you've gotten tired of me.

but he's candy-coated misery,

God knows how the heck I got 31/100 for amath overall, but you know what? Despite being extremely appalled/ bewildered/ astonished/ horrified/ shocked like zomg kdjkdjsfkdsjfkjfkddkfjdkjfkdjkd after getting my paper, I'm actually feeling pretty alright.
And I love my parents so much for being so cool about it.

me: Mom, I got 31/100.
Mom: Hahahahaha, never mind it's okay. I know you can do it. Just try harder next time.

She actually laughed.
And dad said he wouldn't disown me(:

Never expected to do so badly, but the crapshit marks were probably due to the fact that I just blanked out (I just literally forgot all the methods) , used the wrong mode in calculation, left out sums I didn't see (how is that possible) etc.
AHHHHHHHH OKAY I HAVE TO MAKE IT RIGHT NEXT YEAR I HAVE TO!

Come on, come on. Self-motivation!

Thinking about it just makes me terrified.

meatballs.

This is the cutest animated movie ever. The main character's so geeky cute. Animated movies make me happy.
So I've caught about five movies in a span of one and a half weeks. And I'm gonna be watching Julie and Julia with Aqilah wednesday! Which will make it six. See this is why movies are so spectacularly awesome. Minus the stupid ratings (SOMEONE TELL ME WHY THE HURT LOCKER IS M18!)

AND WHEN THE HELL IS WHERE THE WILD THINGS ARE GONNA BE OUT.
I need to watch it, the trailer is so, so sad.

so you sailed away into a grey sky morning -

I HAVE SO MUCH FREE TIME NOW THAT I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO SPEND IT.
Love the fact that monday and tuesday are holidays though.
(:

I cannot believe the day that I got sick of subway would actually come.
Because I am really, incredibly sick of subway that I don't want to even eat the cookies.
I am even sick of the cookies! HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE.
And the strange thing is that I haven't eaten subway for probably a month.
Woah.

Went to Orchard four times this week. Finally stepped into Orchard Central (I had no idea it even existed, maybe because Orchard Ion stole all the limelight away, and now most people think it's some random building with very fancy lights at night. It needs more publicity!) I kinda like it, though the design of the shopping mall is horrible. The shops are all over the place hidden obscurely in nooks and crannies and they're pretty limited too, and there's this big wastage of space and it's so cramped. BUT THERE'S THAT CAFE WHICH YOU CAN ROCK CLIMB AT AND I AM SO GOING THERE OMG IT'S SO FREAKING COOL. Can you imagine having a cup of tea and when you look above, wham there' a huge towering wall above you with people stuck up there trying valiantly to scramble their way up without falling off. So cool.

And there's this shop WHICH SELLS TONS OF SCRAPBOOKING STUFF LIKE LETTERS AND PENS AND ALL ARTSY STUFF AHHHHHHHHH I WANT TO BUY THE WHOLE SHOP. It's called Urban Write by the way, so everyone who likes art and diy stuff should totally check it out.

I just babbled about shopping. Sorry.

I ALSO GOT A NEW SWIMMING COSTUME. Which is amazing because now I can finally go swimming after three years and hopefully regain my swimming ability (shit I hope I still remember how to do freestyle breaststroke backstroke sidestroke butterfly etc) I miss swimming. I wish I had taken Goldstar, or at least joined competitive swimming back then, because swimming was really something I was passionate about.
NOW I HAVE TO START ALL OVER AGAIN.

And I've got a this random swimming joke.

There was once a blonde who entered the 100 m breastroke competition. It was her first time, and so she was very nervous, but she gave it all and managed to clinch second prize.

Blonde: I did it coach! I got second place!
Coach: Great honey, but next time I think you'll do better if you use your hands instead.

so watch me strike a match;

I remember briefly glancing through this book a few years back (before I delved into the gendre of shallow chick-lit) and it left such an indelible imprint on me. Very haunting. The movie looks interesting, haven't seen Sarah Michelle Gellar since Scooby Doo.

Watched The Ugly Truth with amanda today, we finally sneaked into our first NC16 movie (hahahahahaha) and got all high, such a cheap thrill. At first unsuccessfully tried to cheat the auntie, who insisted on seeing our ICs and e-zlink cards, so we tried to quickly concoct some crap up which so didn't work, and then we just bought tickets to Surrogates and then surreptitiously sneaked into the other hall showing the ugly truth.

Now I know why it was rated NC16.

Can't believe how I managed to spend a 100 bucks in two days.
And I'm still gonna go out shopping.

I need a money tree.

Does anyone else NOT want to go to marina barrage tomorrow? I can just imagine the fun of looking at seawall/groyne lookalikes. Boring.

Breathe.

Liberation has never felt any sweeter.
Played tennis after the emath exam, then caught up with nat, yiting and tessa and watched 500 Days Of Summer. Spoilers: It was a really good, quirky indie movie, kinda artsy. Zooey Deshanel and Joseph Levitt have such awesome chemistry. It isn't like the normal cliche-filled romance comedies you usually see, and the ending was so sad and no, it doesn't have a happily ever-after. Pretty refreshing in that way. REID FROM CRIMINAL MINDS ACTED IN IT!!! <3

Doule movie date. Then watched Paper Heart at Cineleisure, hilarious mockumentary and so different from what I had expected it to be. Got my starbucks fix and bused home with vic on 16. I am so sleepy now after an entire day out.

Watching two movies about love in one day doesn't make love any less complex. Love is so complicated.

Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew.
Tom: What?
Summer: What I was never sure of you.

We were careless hearts who got caught up in this.

Doomsday today.
Amath was screwed-up shit. Blanked out because I didn't know the first three sums, didn't finish the paper, skipped sums I actually knew how to do, and my hastily scribbled illegible handwriting is so not going to make things better.
But the worst thing is, that the paper would actually have been alright if I had practiced more. If god lets me pass this I am going to work my butt off for math next year (I mean it!)

Chem was incredibly difficult but still manageable. Guessed half the MCQ answers and threw in new elements to balance half the chemical equations hahahaha.

Only Emath left! Have to ace this or else my math future will be in serious jeopardy.

Going to go wild tomorrow. Wednesday's a holiday too! Awesome awesome. Late nights at orchard<3

Cannot wait for this-

TUESDAY TUESDAY TUESDAY PLEASE.

I'm becoming increasingly restless for the stupid exams to end.
Finished bio at 6 am today and knocked out for four hours after I came back, I don't know how I am going to finish eight chapters of chem and five chapters of amath in three days but when there's a will, there's always a way! A draining tiring mentally exhausting sad way which induces headaches and snatches away snoozing time:(

Yes I can do this, just a few more days of torture and suffering and it'll be done.
I want my movie/board-game marathons and for the revival of my social life.

Am not supposed to be on the com!
Heck lah.

Feeling cranky now due to my bloody swollen lip which looks utterly disgusting and revolting because michael kicked my face yesterday night after we got into some very violent scuffle, and now the whole thing has poofed out into a ball of pus like an ulcer imitation.

I hope people don't get turned off too much.
Ruo Xi looked very traumatised when she saw it.

:(

We'll still have the summer after all.

Went to Parkway for the fourth time this week. Am never going to get sick of going there.
Call me slow, but got hugely excited when I found out Yoshinoya, Starbucks (which is so totally chill-worthy and its cosy roomy atmosphere is just so study-conducive) and KFC opened. Okay I hate KFC (Yes I do, despite the fact that whole world loves KFC, I just get horribly grossed out by the deep-fried fattening crispy chicken skin glistening with fat and slippery oil, and the inside isn't any better)
I think Parkway's seriously so cool now. I mean, if you've been going there for practically half your life, you can say it's changed so much that it's literally unrecognizable now.
From MPH to the new MPH to Borders and from the old food court to the new food court and now the renovated food court and suddenly out of nowhere pops out Cotton On which is probably the only teen-friendly store standing out brightly in a series of otherwise, auntie stores like wanko. My mom just bought a dress there. Uhh.

Wasted my whole weekend away. Now the guilt's painfully settling in and hitting me like a ton of bricks. Actually it's only geography that sucks. I hate geography.

Is it remotely possible for someone who has so many things to do like studying to actually feel bored to the max? Because I feel so bored that I could just die. Someone please inject fun into my life.

Bitterheart.

So just the math and the science and the geog and the chinese and the exams will be over.
Social Studies scared the crap out of me, spent ten very precious minutes inferring info from the Background information instead of the cartoon which I failed to notice was the real source A, panicked and went mad when I found out I had wasted so much time writing one whole page of irrelevant words, then rushed like jfkdjfkjdsfjkdljfkdl and managed to cram both SEQS in half an hour. My whole hand couldn't move after the exam.

I pity Mr Low. The illegible handwriting is just, well, horrifying.
Incredibly thankful I managed to finish the paper.

Chinese was surprisingly alright, but that's what I thought for the mid years and ended up just passing both compos.
But I'm keeping my fingers crossed for these ones, I actually want to hang on and suffer for one more year and NOT PLEASE NOT DROP HMT.

I'm kinda happy about Singtel acquiring the rights to air EPL.
Because now, dad will have no choice but to subscribe to MIOTV which means GOSSIP GIRL AND GLEE AND THE VAMPIRE DIARIES AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

(((((((((((((((((((((:

I'm feeling so high right now.