Thank you 2009.

I'm still trying to desperately convince myself that 2009's not ending, but oh well it's not really working. Can't freaking believe today is new year's eve, it's so unbelievable how crazily fast 2009 went, from what I remember this was probably the year that literally flew by, the fastest. Time always marches on inexorably- before you know it, the year ends and a new year comes, brimming with so many new prospects while the past is so quickly left behind to be replaced by memories. I always feel so sentimental when a year ends, and in this case a decade.
LIKE WOAH.

In retrospect, 2009 was an amazing year, it was one of the years where I had the most ever fun, it was the year full of drama, full of action, full of everything. I still vaguely recall karen's words in sec 2 "When you're in sec 3 everything happens" okay something roughly along those lines. I really had the bestest time in 2009, starting off with a whole group of awesome people - Natasha, Rachel, Victoria, Tat Huey, Tessa, Aqilah, Risa, Ruo Xi, Amanda and Yiting, 3e2 would honestly, suck to the core without you all. You guys are the funnest bunch I've ever met and we seriously kick ass together. Movie quizzes intense bridge sessions doing stupid things charades during free periods talking crap going out like nobody's business fleas and whatnot! From aboslutely abhoring 3e2 to loving it it was great making so many new friends, the rest of the class is otherwise also full of more amazing people but maybe I've yet to know all on a personal basis but a new year brings so many things, doesn't it? (:

1e3/23 people, thank you to all those who've stuck by me, yes it was inevitable drifting away sine we were all put away in different classes but still- thank you mainly Theresa, Angelyn, Karen, Raseena, Denise, Isa-belle, Wei Sze, Beth, do hope we can still continue to interact on a regular basis because you guys are really really just wonderful lovely people. And my awesomest guide bunch- Jerry, Athena, Jasmine, Jie Shi, Renuga I love all of you for always being such lame retards and jokers.

Rebecca, being in different schools is seriously so crap but thank you, it's really comforting that we still keep in touch despite the hectic schedule of both our lives, phone calls really make me feel like I'm still a pat of your life in someway or another. Thank you for possibly 7 years of friendship, you've been just great(:
Lastly, to crystle- You've been such a rock that I don't know what I'd ever do without you, if I had to type out everything you've done for me it would probably span 2032039398 pages but still, thank you for being my best friend.

Though my grades slipped in 2009 (oh dear god math/amath) but I know I have to work immensely hard next year, and I will do that! 2009 taught me so many invaluable things and this may sound weird but I really found myself again in 2009, found out so many things about myself and others I didn't existed and I'll work to become a better person. Sounds sooooooo cliche but yes!

It's kinda early, but Happy New Year everyone!

homework is an effing chore.

a.k.a best christmas movies ever ever ever ever.
You can't get any better romantic comedy than Bridget Jones Diary, it's so good.

FORGOT TO MENTION-

In brief: Watched Sherlock Holmes with theresa on xmas eve, it was such a bloody good show that I was left a little speechless after it all ended, was so engrossed and my eyes were fixated to the screen the whole time ( a little too much action, though) Cast were awesome in their roles, robert downey junior was really outstanding as sherlock holmes.

<333333333333

because it's christmas

Annual christmas eve party at auntie sau ling's house, decorated cookies with icing, cheat, taboo and whatnot with the boys. I love going for midnight mass at holy family, the choir's just beautiful, loved singing all the hymns. Christmas really makes me so happy, there's just something so magical about it- just spending time with your friends and family is probably the best thing anyone could ever yearn for.

Unwrapped presents at 3 am, got an AMAZINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG new camera (Canon IXUS, and it's in baby blue - SCREAMS LIKE MAD CHICKEN) from mom and dad which was a total total surprise because they lied saying they didn't buy me that and nothing under the tree looked like one (they wanted it to be a surprise but knew I usually get them easily) so they gave me the worms world party cd (I love that game period; don't ask) and I was ecstatic but went bonkers when they brought the camera out halfway from their room (it wasn't under the tree after all) So now my old camera with the fungi/snowflake crack has been passed down to ryan. And $120 (OMGGGGGGG) paper market vouchers from Auntie Sau Ling will fund my scrapbooking needs for the rest of the year. Loved the nail polish kit from my brothers to bits too, my mom actually chose it while they paid but the colours were oh-so-pastel pretty!

oh oh and THANK YOU treeza and amanda for the presents! ZOMG I LOVE THEM.

It's the best christmas ever. It really is. Everyone sitting down opening presents in the middle of the morning was just incredibly heartwarming.

Christmas does do wonders, doesn't it?

Merry christmas everyone.

ice.

Yesterday in a nutshell:

Met up with rach dearest for a while at night at 313@somerset, Forever 21 is HUGE and I think it's the best outlet among the three by far, but hardly anything there appealed to me anyway. I've never really liked the stuff from forever 21, they do have a couple of nice clothes but most of the time they're a cross between This Fashion and some ahlian shops in Far East. Some of the prints were so outrageously gaudy that sometimes I wonder why people even love patronising the shop so much.

Marvellous cream has opened in 313, the minute I stepped into it the sweet smothering smell of chessecake mixed with ice cream and the sinful heavy cocoa smell filled my nostrils and it was such a heavenly smell zomg. Ate there once, best ice-cream ever ever. And I'm never ever going back to Orchard Road at night ever again, nearly got squashed/trampled to death in the underpass, hoards of people brisk-walking and brushing past me like I was a non-existant being, half the time I was so afraid someone would accidentally smack my swollen face. But despite the crowds, you can't not to go orchard road during christmas.
There's just something about the haphazard hurried banter of shoppers streaming in and out melding with the crisp soulful voices of caroling, and the flickering colours of christmas lights and decorations spangling the dark solid abyss of night sky an etheral sight - it's just great to soak up the christmas atmosphere, this festive season is really beautiful in its own way. Everyone looks so, so happy.

That is so not a nutshell.

MY FOOD PROBATION IS OVER TOMORROW, HELLO TO CHICKEN AND BEEF AND ALL THINGS NICE LIKE ICE-CREAM- just in time for xmas eve. This is just wonderful.

Had lunch with Nat at Parkway today, before heading off to school to pass my mc to the seniors for not attending camp. Turned out they were having Amazing Race so I sat with Manuella at the fountain and talked, later met up with the rest of them at school, Renuga got so traumatised at my scars and kept squirming and shrieking like I was a mutant, but it was great to see that loser again. Camp seemed horrible from what jas, athena and jie shi described, but I feel a little guilty/sad at having missed the last guides camp of my last sceondary school life, I mean I couldn't help it because I still hadn't fully recovered but I do wish I could have gone, despite all the torture.

Oh well.

And we'll collect the moments one by one;

Today was exhuasting, rushed to school at 10am having had only six hours of sleep for OGL meeting, I'm having second doubts and feeling a tad skeptical about guiding the sec ones or whatever. I have no idea why I was so enthusiastic on being an OGL from the start. Now it seems so...tedious.

After, out with vic and nat, spent money at Paper Market again, that place is just so awesome and so far I've splurged over a freaking HUNDRED dollars on stickers, papers, adhesive buttons and whatnot (my savings have now dried up to a pathetic pulp, I am screwed for the rest of next year) Then when I came home overwhelming pangs of guilt just shot through me relentlessly and I think I'm really too impetuous sometimes. This is so not the right time to unlease my innner scrapbooking passion. It takes me hours just to make anything, be it a collage or a card. Time is of the essence! Vic and Nat brought me to this obscure whimsical shop at Bras Basah, I love love love it, it has this old-school lingering charm, and they sell amazing gorgeous lomography stickers and pictures/photos printed on postcards. And other incredibly quirky stuff, like tote bags and vintage necklaces, there's a cafe inside too where you can chill out at. I love hidden exclusive haunts like this, it's always great to find hidden gems in such unexpected places. Shopped around Raffles City, fnally completed my xmas shopping! This year's budget was a little tight (due to wild inconsiderate spending on myself) but I really hope the whole family likes what I got them.

Later Vic and me decided to be crazy people and travelled all the way to great world city (like who even goes there nowadays?!) for some yoghurt she claimed was the best thing ever. I wouldn't say it was worth the trip, but it was really good, like ice-cream chefs yoghurt style. Fruzen Yoghurt at white sands is still my number one yoghurt parlour. FYI ICE CREAM CHEFS IS SO OVERRATED. Argh. It just sucks that everyone's literally fawning over the whole place, it was so much more cool when it just opened and was relatively unknown. I still like it though, just that the whole exclusivity has diminished. (yes, me and exclusivity, I just like places with good food/good ambience which have yet to be exposed to the entire world, sometimes it just feels nice knowing something that people don't, like a really good secret) And actually, cold rock creamery and pasticream sells even nicer ice-cream with mix-ins (though very very pricey)

BRITTANY MURPHY IS DEAD.
Read becca's blog, some teeny sentence abotu R.I.P Brittany Murphy and got the bigeest shock of my life. I'm still in disbelief right now, she was so young. The fragility of life.
THE CREEPIEST THING EVER is that Vic and I were just discussing animatedly about her right on this Monday afternoon, and testing each other on the movies she acted in, and Vic even mentioned she was her favourite actress. LIKE SERIOUSLY SUCH A COINCIDENCE. Imagine our absolute horror on finding out about her death only tonight, when we had just discussed about her a few hours ago. She had been alive in our minds, back then.

Way freaky. Brittany Murphy movie marathon in honour of her death is on the cards.

Honestly, can you believe we crossed the world while its asleep?

in your message you said, you were going to bed
but I'm not done with the night.
so I stayed up and read, but your words in my head got
me mixed up so I turned out the light.

and I, don’t know how, to slow it down.
my mind’s racing from chasing pirates.

Take me away to nowhere plains

Take note, everyone: If someone gives me a bunch of bright colourful balloons on my birthday in school next year, I will scream and hug her. Really. I fail when it comes to subtle hints.

I just have this strange balloon fetish. Love balloons.

A wild present hunt around Orchard with crystle yesterday (yes ISA-BELLE no prizes for guessing whose present we were looking for haha) turned into me spending a lot of unecessary money on myself and returning home with an empty wallet. 313@somerset is sweet, maybe because of the novelty of a new shopping mall, but I think the design of the mall is really innovative and different. I like Ribbons, Theresa! Did a lot of walking, let's just say it was all HMV's fault. From 313 to heeren to 313 again and then citylink mall. Sheesh.

Was inexcusably late in meeting jerry and jas at white sands, oh dear I need to make conquering latecoming one of my new year's resolutions. I AM ALWAYS LATE FOR EVERYTHING. On rare occasions when I know the person I'm meeting is especally intolerable of people being late, I'll be just on time. It's horrible I know, but people who know me well usually forgive me on this shortcoming. The only thing I'm on time for is school. How sad is that. And movies. I'm never, ever late for a movie.

The new yoghurt parlour at white sands is so uber cool. The idea of mixing your own yoghurt and toppings and you pay the whole thing by weight is the most ingenius thing ever invented in the history of ingenius things. And the yoghurt's sooooooo good. I'm going back there every week. Sec four farewell was as usual, boring and a waste of time. I'm sure it's cursed because of some recurring jinx, every year it rains on the day of the barbeque. The damn fire kept going off and in the end we all just burned paper as charcoal substitution (which I might add, was very effective in cooking the food).

I need to stop going out! There's still so much to do. And there's Guides camp on 22-23, it's just a pathetic day camp and I CANNOT COMPREHEND WHY THEY ARE STILL SO HELL-BENT ON TORTURING THE CRAP OUTTA US. It was cancelled in June due to H1N1 (life saver, is that ironic?) and they're still so adamant on having it. Actually I shouldn't be complaning because I, obviously, due to my physical state will no way be fit for camp and I should be able to give some excuse letter to excuse myself from all strenous activities (which is, like everything!) but I think I should still show up for obligation and responsibility's sake. And sit in school and do nothing while everyone suffers. Muahahahaha.

Study/homework dates with friends are never productive.

After Vic decidedly abandoned us for her godma who just came back from america, met nat at BigSplash Starbucks in a very impulsive last-minute thing to complete homework in the evening. Love the starbucks there, it's definitely one of the more study-conducive ones around (not like we did much anyway) And it's so big and cosy! I accomplished close to nothing, save for 10 MCQ bio questions. Laughed and laughed and laughed. Love you nat! Studying with friends so does not work for me. Walked to KFC, played truth and dare which was bloody retarded. Then walked all the way to Parkway (and it wasn't really lighted all the way!), I was super scared that we were going to get kidnapped. I am way too paranoid.

I HAVE YET TO COMPLETE ALL MY XMAS CARDS OH SHITTT. And christmas shopping has yet to be completed! Time is of the essence.

Wintersong.

New phone call record: 3-hour-8-minute-and-14-second phone call with nat last night all the way until 2am. My insomnia problem is getting way out of hand. At this rate I won't be able to sleep at all.

Helped film the opening of the sec four farewell video today (DAMN CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS THING TO BE OVER), then I hurried down to parkway to get art supplies from popular and went on a crazed spree and spent all my money on mindless things. Christmas is coming and I don't really know what I want, but I wouldn't mind:

1) A new camera
(I got one for xmas last year but the quality is seriously bad, whatwith the cracked snowflake-like thing on my screen and the fact that the macro isn't very sharp)
2) canon photo selphy printer (but actually printing it at the photoshop would be cheaper yes)
3) scrapbooking emboss machine

I LOVE LOVE LOVE SURPRISES. So I really don't want it to be the case where I tell my parents what I want, because then it wouldn't be a surprise anymore! But I guess if I don't get any of them that wouldn't matter, because it's always the thought that counts. Anyway I just love the festive spirit of christmas, that's the whole point of it.

(:

Because life's just amazing in some way.

Caught up with jas, jerry and jie shi today at jerry's house, made sec four farewell invites and I am so totally going to buy the $100 dollar scrapbooking emboss machine which her aunt has(I WILL DO IT FOR THE SAKE OF ART!) I am on an inspired mission to start making gorgeous cards for people's birthdays and any other occasions. Today was awesome in every single way, laughed and laughed until my whole mouth was aching like shit and I nearly laughed until I cried, talked and talked and talked. Got yelled at on the phone by someone who shall not be identified ("WHAT PAGE! WHAT PAGE! WHO'S PAIGE!"), being swaddled in piles of coloured paper which cluttered the entire room, me and jie shi fighting over the emboss machine. I really missed those guys so much, guides will never ever the same without them. It's only after not going out for so long that I finally realised how much I miss everyone, it was just so great to have fun with them all over again. I'm going to try my best not to care how I look anymore (a few months looking like a chubby-faced parrot isn't too bad) because life's just too awesome to sit around and mope and whine. I'm going to live every single day the best that I can. It's inconceivable what one operation can do to you, it actually made me appreciate life much more.

Thank god for life, for everything. A kickass-awesome family, tons of awesome friends whom make secondary school life the best times ever, and now that the op's over, I'm so, so relieved.

Cabbed to Parkway and by golly within two weeks the place has changed in some inconspicuous way, I don't see anything really different but I can feel that something is different. Maybe because I can now see Toby's Desert Asylum on the second floor, they must have hacked away something so now the purple sign's protruding out of somewhere.

Got to go finish all homework asap. Ahhhhhhhhh.

Oh, reckless abandon, like no one's watching you-

I'm officially allowed to go out! Though lots of rest is still imperative. I actually think that in spite of all my desperation to be let out, staying at home is still, sadly, the best for me. Will be buried in piles of homework. Spent the entire morning painstakingly writing christmas cards to all the special people in the world, and each one sounds more like a letter. This year's record: TWENTEE-FIVEEEEE. If I had more time I would definitely design all of them myself (every year it's a tradition for me to design one card) I just love making cards. Urbanwrite at orchard central has this card making kit that I really want, the art-scrapbooking-paper section is just amazing amazing amazing and I could spend all my money there.

Going to jerry's house tomorrow with jie shi to make the sec 4 farewell invitations. I miss guides. A lot.

My life's actually so boring that I have nothing more to comment on. Oh dear. This is what happens when you're trapped in your house for two weeks.

BTW I JUST FOUND OUT THAT THE PRIVATE LIVES OF PIPPA LEE IS M18 THIS IS SO DAMN PISSING OFF WHAT THE HELL MAN.

You'll have to cry me out;

I am this close to shooting myself if I don't go out of the house.
This convalescent period is going to be harder than I thought.
Feel like a prisoner incarcerated in my own home.
I really miss going out with so many people, and there are some that I haven't even gotten the chance to go out with yet! And I missed An Education (which I read from reviews was a superb movie) and Fantastic Mr Fox. New Moon can go to hell for all I care. I really cannot comprehend why everyone's so manic over a lousy movie.

The only good thing that came out of everything:
fish + fruits everyday has caused me to shed 3 kg (every cloud does have a silver lining after all hahahaha) But being good-food deprived is just torturous, having an op cancels out a diet of virtually anything nice-tasting. I would give the world to taste chicken right now.

I have concluded that if I do not start on tys now, I'll probably have a mega freak-out moment a week before school and tear my hair out. Being "sick" gives me even more unwilling reason to get started on things since I cannot go out with friends. But somehow I can't bring myself to do anything, and this is actually a big cause for concern. Motivation is needed!

PS: I am addicted to worms world party. Anyone play that game before? I sound like a moron but the computer game keeps me for hours on end.

And I just realised I actually hate going online. I can spend hours on the com everyday but I never bother to sign in. I don't really like chatting on msn because I find it so impersonal, so robotic and emotionless? I'm weird I know. I mean, wouldn't a phone call be so much better? I love hearing people's voices muffled on the line, even if there's static or the buzz sound at times it comforts me that there's always someone there for you on the other end. Hearing their voice is just as good as talking to them face to face (of course the real thing is better) I guess for msn it's the same thing, but sometimes the words in the convo feel so...foreign. Like anyone could have typed them.

I love phone calls.

Maybe we all just need something to hold on to.

Is it possible to feel stressed in the holidays?
Freaked out big time after realising how much homework there actually was, I was on the verge of ripping both the amath and math tys into teeny shreds and dumping them in a fire.
THE AMOUNT OF HOMEWORK IS RIDICULOUS.

The best part- I'm still slacking my butt off.
After all the panic, sat down and watched tv the entire day. Going to finish season four of criminal minds online!(:
Holiday mood still lingering, and will be for a long time.
shitshitshitshit. Where's discipline when you need it!

Despite looking like I have an orange stuck in my mouth, I really miss going out with people.
I will never be able to survive if I am ever grounded.
Thank goodness I have never experienced that.

Okay short post. Project runway now(:

Blue December.

I love December.

And christmas.

And happy people.